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ROSEMARIE






Friday, December 21, 2007

Everything i do is not good enough for you. First you thought my results are good then when you heard of others you said mine was crap.I mean in life no matter how good you are theres gonna be someone who is better than you right? I mean i kno i can do better but i really put in my best. Everyone could tell that i improved since prelims. What can i do to make you proud? I try my very best in everything but in the end it all comes down to bullshit in your eyes. I try and try but i dont think i can carry on any further. Its very close to my breaking point already. And O level year hasnt even started. You keep saying i'm not putting in any effort or be bothered bout my work for next year. Did you ever think that with a little encouragement i could soar? Did you ever consider how i feel everytime you compare me to my friends? I kno i was great during sec 1 and 2 but come on at least i'm picking myself up into the top 40 already. Its a small step at a time. Do you think i'm not upset that everyone is climbing above me? Every night i lay in bed thinking why i fell behind why i ended up like this and most importantly why am i starting to look down on myself too.

On a happier note went out with Peck, Alili and Kaven. Yup went to town again ha. Watched Mr dont know what's wonder emporium hee(: Boring and my toes were freezing, Alili's something else were freezing. Erm like eww Alili.Goodness ha. Alrite gotta stop thinking soo much. Out.

What do you do when it all falls apart
Is everything gonna be alrite?