Three thumbs up.

2009-10-26T20:31:00.003+08:00

Like omg so much things to do soo little time:/ So busy with sch no time for hon anymore. And that makes me sad:/ I need to lose weight rosy is punishing herself. Mmhmm. So now i've got soccer,ballet and touch ruggy to keep me fatless. Yes(: Like socccer is fun ttm oh me gee i'm ok with balls i guess. Just dont understand why it doesnt wanna stick to me but chooses to go to my opponent. *Frowns. Ok back to studying. Out.

Sorry love!!

I'll give you a kiss when i see you next(:

2009-10-17T21:57:00.003+08:00

Omg last day of sch much(:

Oh goodness its been long since i ranted. Ha. Well lets start by saying this week has been the boomz of all since hols started.

Wed

Went out with prissy, haseenah,krysten,shar and sharifar(: Soul gardened after 283628 yrs.

Yes and heres the boomz i stayed out till 10.45. Halleluya!! Ahahaha. What? My dad happens to be the typical strict indian without the turban ok.

Thurs

Someone ditched my ass so i went ALONE for training. Ahahah. Met Lucia then started training. My first match!!!! Damn tiring but soo bloody fun though i probably pissed everyone off cos i was a newbie. Ha. I love marking men. " Oats navy blue is yours!! Gill incoming ugly green shoes!!'

Fri

First went to boyfriend's hse. Wanted to play xbox but failed slept instead he didnt change his bed sheet. Gosh. *Glares. Then met prissy and elenanana for dinner at manhattan fish market where char and her entourage came to steal our food and $10 voucher. Ahahaha.

Today my whole entire family left for kuching so rosy is omgly so lonely at home. I'm ditching ballet and going for training. I call the shots when they're not in. Eating on the couch walking around in.... Ok info overload. Out.

You couldn't have

loved me better.

2009-10-13T11:55:00.002+08:00

Last week of hols!! Ah well. I cant stop telling love that i'm fat and its getting on his nerves. And i know that cos he tried CARRYING me ytd. Ya can you believe it some bamboo stick carrying a boulder?! Zomg la plox. Ahahahhaha.

And i'll keep my heart

close to yours.

2009-10-04T16:33:00.002+08:00

Well love and i sorted it out last night or at least i think we tried. Ahahahaha. It still feels kinda awkward but should be ok after awhile. He just has to earn it back. Hor? Ahahaha. Yeah talked to honeystars last night felt so much better. Last week of attachment. Whoo hoo(: Ohoh and ytd love and i caught fame nice. I like it when i lie on him then can hear his heart beat. So fast one like abnormal heart rate. Ha.

You took something perfect

And painted it red.

2009-10-03T19:55:00.002+08:00

Attachment this 2 weeks has been draining me out. Goodness the things i do and see in the ward is beyond my wildest imagination. Ha. But its kinda life changing and has been making me think alot. I found out something and i really wish i didnt. Cos i feel very hurt. I'd have understood if you had told me i really would. Ok maybe i would have been a bit disappointed but i'd have understood. Then i heard it frm someone else and really the feeling was like 'Omg like i didnt know till now? How stupid can i be'

But i thought bout it and i know why you did it. You didnt want to hurt me and make me worry. But it was just worst when i found out. But its alrite now. Cos besty is right i know the feeling and i just want you to know i'll always be here when you need me(:

Little did i know.

That butterflies watched you

pass me by.

Naive was I.

2009-09-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

I HATE MYSELF.

How did you
get here under
my skin?

2009-09-17T12:03:00.002+08:00

Its hols now boring much? Attachment is starting nxt week. And zomg shitass i'm on noon shift too that means till 9pm!!! Sucker. Hmmm hope it'll be ok i'm nervous. What if i do something wrong or forget everything and they're bleeding there. Crap?!

Ok then theres the mumsy prob. I hate getting in her way cos she just takes it out on me. And its just so effing irritating that i get all the crap. Like hello i'm no dirtbag la. And i quit netball gonna join touch which makes me happy. Oh but guess what ppl arent and i'm just so tired. When i'm happy ppl are dissappointed in me when i'm unhappy ppl are happy for me. Sometimes i dont know who i am anymore. Whatever.

Ohh i had a weird dream today i dreamt of my MI friends. Ahahahha.

Whos that girl
Living my life?

2009-08-30T15:44:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wish I had that kind of freedom. It's alrite 3 more yrs and everyone can kiss my ass goodbye cos you asked for it. Would I have to lie if you'd had let go? Nope I guess not. But too bad some ppl never change. I admire Nicole she was brave enough to do it cos she knew whatever she'd do won't change a thing. Cos it's natural that ppl only regret when it's gone. It's time I did something for myself.

When the only thing
you have is yourself.
Things start to get a
little brighter.

2009-08-28T19:21:00.001+08:00

Omg it's been 4 mths since I last blogged. Miss pouring out my feelings here. So today was the last day of exams. Like finally. So went out with the girls. Then as I was going hm mumsy called. ' Where're you?' 'Erm plaza sing.' 'Oh I'm at orchard want to meet me?'No don't want I'm going hm with my friends". ' Rude man you.' I mean like wth la. You ask me whether I wanna meet you I said no and you say I'm rude. Everytime I'm happy someone just has to ruin it. WHY? I do everything for others when will I do something for myself? Why do I deserve shit and more shit?! No mood to eat so much for hols spirit:(

Someone to fall back on.

2009-04-18T14:44:00.002+08:00

Zomg just came back frm HS freshman orientation camp. And and its was awesome to the max though i'm 3/4 dead. Aching at my arms and legs and suffering frm the cuts and bruises:/ First day was the usual ice breaker games damn lame la but major funny. Our SLs were awesome too. Vicky, Aqilah, Luqman and Nat. Second day was the bomb played water and dirty games when they said must throw away yr clothes after that they meant it. Got dunked in mud, chilli sauce, coffee powder, salted veg, vinegar, shrimp paste, buttter and toothpaste. Damn sick but bloody fun. Our cheers are awesome too. Last day everyone got fried in the sun playing games with the whole camp. Yup thats all i lovee my sch and the ppl there. Mmhmmm. *Grins

You spin my head

right round

when you go down.

2009-04-11T15:24:00.003+08:00

Ok so lots of things happened and i dont wish to talk bout it agn so. The point is i got grounded for goodness knows how long. Mmhmm. Cant wait to get my ass outta my hse. Zomg mon i've got sch(: Excited much 3 yrs with gf and cia just like the old times. *Grins. And and theres clubbing night on the eve of my birthday. Awesomeness. Hee. I cant wait for my birthday seriously and i dont know why. I'm addicted to secret valentine. Can you believe this Peyton actually planned out how she wants her first kiss to be? Ahahahahaha. Ok so imma think of mine now. Wth. I miss elenanananananananna sooooooooo much(:

SUPRISE ME.

2009-04-01T13:59:00.007+08:00

Can i say how freakin bored i am at home? OMG its killing me. For once i want poly to start asap. I cant go

back to sch cos my ding dong daddio doesnt allow. Hes out to make my life miserable:/ But i went back on

tues. The min i stepped in can hear 'Rosyyyyyyy!!! Omg you bitch why you here?" Ha. Those asses(:

Waited for Peyton and Ariel to finish PE. Talked to Crystal while waiting. Her whole life only got dark

knight. Hee. Aww so sweet. Then met Peyton and Ariel trained down to ulu potong pasir to watch the

boys first rugby match. Erm yeah they got trashed real bad but good one boys. The SA boys were damn

buff not a single injured one. *Shruggs. They finished late so couldnt have dinner. Went home talked to

crystal then fell aslp. My bill is gonna blow due to some prob then i'm texting 93742874 ppl. Ha. Who

cares. Ohhh honeystars is out on her first date so happy for her purposely pick scary movie only that

cheeky girl. Late on her first date shame on you baby. Ha. Everyones in love esp Crystal. Shhhhhhhhhhhh(:

Maybe its just my imagination

But its making me wonder

Maybe i just gotta get next to you.

2009-03-30T12:28:00.002+08:00

I GUESS I'M BEING THAT FOOL ALL OVER AGAIN.
AND THEN BEFORE YOU KNOW IT YOU'RE FROZEN.
JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I FOUND SOMETHING TRUE.
YOU TURNED AND WALKED THE OTHER WAY.
LEAVING ME HANGING BY THE MOMENT.
SO I'LL TRY MY BEST TO DROWN OUT THE SOUNDS
OF DOUBTS THAT ARE FILLING MY EARS.

2009-03-30T12:17:00.003+08:00

Zomg thats my new fav word. I stopped sch alrdy:/ I MISS EVERYONE MAJOR MAJOR MUCHNESS:/ My "camp" was awesome. Went to the zoo so fun. Had farewell dinner with Peyton,Ariel,Daniel,Gerald,Kiren,Ram and Aaron. Funny ppl they are. On sat night conferenced till 5.30am with Pam,Crystal and Justin major funny and full of bullshit. I found my number 1 point 1(: Yesss i'm going for the rugby match on tues after fighting with daddio for hrs. Cant wait for poly to start then i've got an excuse to go out. Ha. Ok thats all. Out.

If only you knew
What i did
For you.

2009-03-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

ITS OFFICIAL I'M TRANSFERRING TO NP.

2009-03-14T17:52:00.003+08:00

*Grins.

So drama like huh.

Pretty colours.

Somethings will last forever.

This week was filled with much laughter and smiles. Nxt nxt mon will be my final day in MI. I'm hoping that somehow time will freeze then when i wake up nxt nxt tues it'll be a repeat of mon. Cool. I'm major broke now. Crap:/ Rents are being irritating or maybe its just me pmsing. Peyton is head over heels with iceman. Yes we've got a justice league in sch. Imma miss waiting for Sheqal and Peyton for 3836325 yrs for their training to end. Miss my netball trainings and the girls. Miss gossiping. Miss listening to Reuban's racist jokes and Ryan shouting baik. Miss explaining things slowly to Jamie cos shes so blur like my honeystars. And most of all miss... Whatever la. Omfg i've to go for blood test on mon for my poly admission. Scary muchness. New laptop here i come. *Grins.

I'd rather be alone

Cos i know that i cant have you.

2009-03-08T21:43:00.002+08:00

As i read your email i couldnt help but tear. I wanted to tell you soo many things. But i guess it'll be bullshit to you. Cos to you i'm probably invisible. Well havent i always been. I just want you to know i'll keep waiting for the day we'll finally be back to normal.

As i picked it up
It slipped from my grasp.
Once again.

2009-03-07T22:01:00.006+08:00

Jamie,Me,Max,Joanne,Peyton,Shaiful.

Blackowhito.

Uh huh thats Ernie and Brandon for you.

Bossa ball. *Grins. Spot me.

Posing with the ah lian. Oops sorry Nana.

Sorry its the morning 'turn off effect'.

Hmmm so ytd was sports day. Trained to sch. Some ninny was eating curry cup noodles and playing pokemon at 7am in the morning. Got scolded by me cos seriously. Who the heck eats that in the morning? Bad for health. Played bossa ball. OMG its the funest shit i've ever done. Bouncing up and down like you just dont care all yr worries gone with the wind. Ok there was no wind it was scorching. My feet is burnt cos we played without shoes. I scored a goal. Yay. Everyone was like ' baeh la rosy' Whatever that meant. Cheerleading was awesome. So sexy the outfits. Oh. And the stunts were amazing. Garnet won like duh. Ha. Then met the girls in town watched role models. Goodness vulgar show.

Its five in the morning

And i cant go to sleep

Cos i wish that you knew how much

You mean to me.

2009-03-03T20:36:00.004+08:00

Smiling enlightens the soul and takes away stress. I think. I'M MAJOR HAPPY FOR NANA AND ERNIE. *Grins. So fun bustering each other today. I'm falling sick with sniffing probs and sore throat. Oh wellis. Sports day this fri then out to town. Pls dont behave this way thambi i still love you alrite. You're coming to pick me up nxt week. And reply me you ass when you see this.

Maybe its just my imagination
I should have.

2009-03-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

Its raining.

Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited, it is never rude
or selfish, it does not take offence and is not resentful.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.
Love does not come to an end.

Wearing those masks
I can fool the world
But i cant fool my heart.

2009-02-27T20:54:00.003+08:00

I was major depressed during chinese ytd. Everyone could answer the answers and all i could do was stare at the paper with my mouth open and head screaming "Omg omg shit shit". I'm seriously lost in studies. I'm always so tired and frustrated. Elenana said i've changed since i started sch. Crap. So i've decided to reappeal into NP. I'm really confused on what to do. I'll let God decide whether i'd get the appeal. Met Elenana and Nana at cine. Then the boys came in a mob. We took neoprint omg after 38462352 yrs. Then went with the boys to some ulu place which freaked me out major. I wanted to lan. Seriously. Sat at macs with hairswinger i mean Ken. He tried note tried to teach me maths. I pretended i knew what he was saying. Uh oh. Bengs and lians scare the shitpies outta me. Omg Kendra gave Ryan a braun buffel wallet for his birthday. It wasnt even Nana's birthday and she got an adidas watch. Goodness.

Ken: Look so emo(Shows me someone's blog on his phone)
Me: Eeee why so emo.
Me: Eh wait isn't that my blog?
Ken: *Grins evily.

These wounds are self inflicted
One more thing i'm addicted to.

2009-02-20T19:03:00.008+08:00

When did i fall apart?

You think i want it this way. You dont know how much i hate myself. Why'd i have to be soo stupid why'd have to be in NA and still get shit results? Everything you said bout knowing i've done my best is all bull. I know in yr eyes i'm always a loser an eyesore. And you know what i think so too. You asked me to not take the appeal now you want me to give up my sch when i've finally settled down. You say i go there to have fun you want me to quit netball and ballet. You're giving me 1 term so i'll proof you wrong. I fcking dont know what to do anymore. You say you're stressed. What bout me i'm torn inside .I want to end it all. If i had the guts i'd end it all. I'm alrdy at the limit i cant go on anymore. I'm numbed by you're words it really cut like a knife. I dont wanna feel anymore i'm tired i really am. I'm smiling and laughing for the sake of it. Someone tell me what to do because i dont even know myself anymore. Yet if i could start it over i wouldnt change anything. I'd do it all over again.

Sch is alrite. The only sane thing in my life is knowing that i got into A103 with Peyton and Jamie. And the train rides every morn with Peyton,Joanne,Max,Alex. Racing against time. And ofcos netball. Netball it keeps me going i forget eveything when i'm training. The adrenaline rush and the sound of my sneakers against the floor. Everytime i talk to honeystars i'm soo broken i miss the girls. But i really have no mood to talk just crying myself to sleep every night. If i could find you now things might get better. I really need someone to fix the pieces cos i'm lost and insecure now. Oh i sprained my thumb during training it resembles a taiwan sausage and i've got a knot in my upper back. Karn lan.

Pull me under

Because i dont wanna

Tread the waters anymore.

2009-02-15T00:06:00.005+08:00

(Rosemarie takes chinese!) Yes Joanne i do. Ha.

Eh omg this was valentines 2 yrs ago.

Thanks guys. *Grins.

Ytd my valentine made me walk half of town just to stall time so that Char, Nana and TanJuanKen can suprise me. Valentine is no good at keeping secrets. Ha. I almost cried. Awww i likey suprises(: Thanks guys. I want a sunflower pls. Oh crap its 12.12 valentines over. *Frowns. Oh wellis. Crushing on drowning. Sigh. Omg i saw Joanne's blog and she putted a pic of me in chi lecture so naughty that girl. Ha. More peekcheers soon.

It wasnt nothing

When i said it.

2009-02-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

Nah my valentine's gift to you.

Huh who?

Oh yes sunkist.

I'd trade it all.

Whole week of lectures and more to come. Best lecture was chinese i swear. Omg i got 6/12 for pure bio mcq. I've NEVER done pure bio. Cool. I'm feeling happy and i dont know why. Last 2 days were pure crappyness. So its a change. Training killed me today did warm ups, played 3min street netball then 7 and 10 min full court game. Goodness. But i like the sound of my sneakers skidding.*Grins. 2nd trial on mon then touch rug on wed. Omg. Valentines is tmr(:

I cant help it

I just keep drowning in your love.

2009-02-08T18:51:00.003+08:00

Just felt like saying thanks Elenana and Ken for picking me up frm school. It really makes my day after an exhausting day(:

2009-02-08T16:36:00.003+08:00

Last min practising.

I lovey my uni.

Ohh Joanne how cheeky of you.

Trojan ole ole ole.

Trojan 3 the faggies.

Last day of fun orientation was bestest. We bonded hell lot more. Uh huh. Finished at 9.30pm so bummed out. The mystery game was shitass scary Joanne and I were shaking and looking 360 degrees for ghosts. Ha. I'm beggining to enjoy sch. Yesyes i've decided netball for cca. Yay. Damn it uni are sold out gotta wear my sec uni for 2 whole weeks:/ Ok another week of sch. Lectures and more lectures. Suprise me.

Just so you know

You're still the one.

Always been.

2009-02-05T20:00:00.002+08:00

Today's orientation was major funess. Played water games. Musical chairs where chairs were filled with eggs, flour and water. We sat in em and yeah shirt, shorts and undies were WET. Goodness. Joanne think she was smart to sit on me till we both got dunked with a pail of water. Tug of war saw ppl rolling on me. Water bombing saw us cursing and screaming. Nodded off during talk. Once a saint always insane. I swear the seniors are full of bull. Tmr is gonna be a looong day. Game on baby.

As i heard my laughter
I wondered if you were happy too
I wanna hold on to whats real.

2009-02-04T18:08:00.003+08:00

Day three of orientation was fun. Mass dance was naughty. I had to freakin partner a very unenglish guy. Goodness. Played weird games like passing water bombs with our mouths and getting our faces dunked in flour. Almost snored during the talks. Did not eat anything besides frosties since 6am as no lunch was served today. Came back and wolfed down my mars bar in 4 bites. Walked home listening to thinking of you in the rain so fun(: What if my gut feeling fails then it'll just be another dream.

Would i dare
To untangle your thoughts.

2009-02-02T18:55:00.003+08:00

I dont want to act anymore its draining all of me. I feel so lonely. I can smile my bestest then just suddenly it falls. The pirecing sounds of reality is drowning out my plea. I dont know how much longer i can hold out. Elenana i should give up too. It was foolishness to even have fallen from the start. Show me a sign that i should hold on. On valentines. Who am i kidding.

To keep me from falling apart
And make everything ok.
As time passed
I realised i'm frozen

2009-01-31T22:22:00.002+08:00

I cant do this. I really cant. Dont force me i'm begging you. My head my heart i cant feel a thing. I dont wanna continue anymore. Please. I like playing guitar hero.

Standing at the edge
I smiled and plunged.

2009-01-28T21:29:00.003+08:00

Dashed his way into my heart.
*giggles.

I was hungry.

Thats the face of a sucessful gambler.

Chinese new year. Hong bao give me more. Ha. Been very tired running around spore visiting, dressing up, eating and more eating. Bad bad. Hmmmmm thats all k bye.

Did i really cross the line

If i had the choice

I'd do it all over again.

2009-01-22T22:56:00.010+08:00

Brandon was chasing me laaa.

Sunkist smile.

Our promise.

It was you and me against the world.

Nana thinking abourit.

Love you miss you wanna kiss you.

Starring the three muskerteers.

Somethings brewin. Oops(:

Uh huh is my new fav word. Went to the beach today. Elena, Char, Nana and I cycled for 2 hrs non stop. Tmr top thighs gonna ache. Brandon bladed hes crazy. Tanned while the sun was SCORCHING hotness. I've got a tan where ppl cant see:/ But i'm happy. Hee. Gave char a birthday suprise so fun. Elenana and i tried to grande jete on the sand and failed miserably but cartwheeling was awesome. I'm major tired now. But gotta upload pics for some ppl. Ha. Kennaton i meant ken was nice enough to sew my fav belt which was torn to the last thread. *shruggs. Sis says my nose tan is cute. God my face hurts from the burn. Cant smile properly for nuts. Crap bill is 60 bucks rents wanna cut off my line. Not good. Chinese new yr goodies here i come!!

But what if i told you

your smile turned

my heart blue.

2009-01-21T15:42:00.004+08:00

Major catastrophe. Physio scares the shitcells outta me. Relax? Are you kidding relax when your shocking my back with volts that make my body jerk with pain. I couldnt scream nothing would come out. Stupid ambience. I could only stare ahead with such fear and shock in my eyes that Ryan had to look away. BUT. My back is soo much better now. Crap my mens came this morn. Cramps:/ After saying whats yr prob a dozen times dad allowed me to go picnicking tmr!! I'm gonna smile alot tmr(: I hope. Ha. Reunion dinners here i come attacking with my chopystickies.

Its the wrongs that make us human
The rights that see us through
And the maybes that tears us apart.

2009-01-20T10:54:00.003+08:00

Ok instead of telling each individual my results. I shall post it so yall can see it for yourselves. I'm not ashamed of it but just disappointed. Hmmm oh well. I'm eating like a mull at home . This is bad. Oh smokaholy Tabby dont get a tattoo Joshy wont like it. Ahahahahaha dont kill me. Crap physio tmr for my back. Ohh why did i have to open my big mouth. If you hear screaming tmr its probably me. No doc pls anything but the shocktides. I BEG YOU:/

English: B3 ( Quite pleased considering our cohord did very badly)
Math: C6 ( I slogged my ass of with tuition everyday for a pathetic C6)
Chinese: C6 ( Kiss my ass i passed. Ha.)
Combined science: B3 ( It was the physics screw it)
Combined humans: B4 ( Noo days i spent avoiding rice due do phobia of wet rice topic got me a B4 only)
Accounts: B3 ( Best for last. Hey i was a hopeless one at that. Even my teacher said so. Failed every test and exam. So B3 was an awesome suprise.

Did you lie from the start
Cos i gotta know what made me unbeautiful

2009-01-19T21:03:00.003+08:00

Did so much ponche ytd that my upper back is aching like crap. Ran to tp, sp and np to drop off DAE application. Fingers crossed! Then went to visit honeystars at work. Hotness major elenanana in work uni no wonder the cafe was crowded. Hee. Then spring cleaned my room. While doing that i found the scrapbook you gave me for my 15th birthday. Now the pics are all just a memory. Hmmmm. Then Joshua and me painstakenly unhusked the pussy willow and made it pretty. Ew. Its hard to type while bobbing my head to hip hop music. Ha. Char oh char always making smile to myself.

Char: You like hairswingers. I like headbanders.
Rosy: Uh huh.
Char: But then they have to be hairswingers to be headbanders.

Yes hon that theory is soo erm practical. Ahaha.

You'll keep drawing a picture
That'll never resemble me
Cos the pieces dont fit anymore.

2009-01-16T15:18:00.007+08:00

I cant go on anymore i really cant. I lost it. Theres no words to express the thoughts that are running through my head. I give up. I'm drained completely. Who'd catch me as i fall? Missed the fooshing JPSAE deadline. Lord take the lead i surrender. A box of fruitloops will cheer me up.

I thought i knew myself so well
Maybe its a fall from grace.
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go.

2009-01-12T22:43:00.002+08:00

Got back results today. Still in shock. I was shaking so hard i could feel Elena's struggle to hold me up. Then while crying i started laughing it was funny really knowing that everyone else is feeling the same way you are. Then went to Ikea with the boys. Cheered me up temporarily. I'm so confused. I dont know anything anymore. Dont know what to feel or think or do. My head is just so filled up that its empty get it? I cant cry no more cos i'm drained. Exhausted maybe i should just let everything go.

As my tears dried
The world turned solid
Frozen as you called my name.

2009-01-09T22:13:00.005+08:00

Went for tp open house today. Had to fake a smile the whole day. Yes Elena we're on the same masked path. Remember if you let go so will I. Masked path sounds like mars bars ohh craving. Danced mass dance with char everyone was staring. Ha. After went 85 with everyone. So full. Hmmmm since its the 9th let me say 9 random things.

1. I like disecting gummy bears.
2. Elena is my honey mixed with stars.
3. I've got a craving for mars bars right now.
4. I cant say mosquito properly.
5. I like squinting when i'm sleepy.
6. I talk to my toy puppy when i'm sad. (Its called Jewel)
7. I hate yet like ppl whispering in my ear.
8. I like observing people. Especially when they're sleeping.
9. I like the feeling of my hair being played with.

Drop down turn around
And you'll see that i'll always be here.
Maybe i should let it fall.

2009-01-07T13:21:00.008+08:00

Get the picture?

Awww thanks Elenanana

Truth or dare is a dangerous game. I keep wanting to say mash potato. But all that comes out is marsh mellows. Stuttering. You were so near but somehow so far. Today Elena, Char and Tabby came over. Funess and madness. Ordered pizza and watched love guru. Laughed the house down. Camwhored(:

Elena
Ytd was undescribable. Crying and laughing at the same time. We need some soul searching. Now all we can do is wipe the tears and put on a smile. Love you hon(:

Was it foolishless that i fell for you?
Once again i'm hanging by the thread.

2009-01-05T23:02:00.009+08:00

Oh hot damn.

Unpainted index

Baby Janice. Awwwww.

Honey mix with stars.

Life's been boring. Today is the last day of christmas. Should have know huh charlotte. Miracle yeah in my dreams have la. Ha. Elenananana honoured not?

Sometimes i wish i could save you.

If it takes you forever

I want you to know.

2009-01-03T20:12:00.003+08:00

Ultraviolet on repeat. Thats song never fails to make me smile unconciously. 4 days to end of xmas. Still waiting. Too weak to post more.

That look in your eyes said it all.
The sadness i saw thru them
If only i could take the pain away.

2009-01-02T11:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. Gonna make this an awesome bashing year. Ass happy i tell you. So went for mass and countdown. Hmmm spotted ppl in church. Ha. Elenananana is back(: And stop making fun of me. Sorry if i have a fettish for drinking can drinks. At least i dont run to heeren. Ha. Off to Brandon's party!!

Visons so insane
Travel unrevelling through my brain
Cold when i deny it
Your light is ultraviole

2008-12-31T18:17:00.004+08:00

I'm over the gum balled moon. Finally catched angus thongs. It was obviously worth waking early for. Sooooo many hair swingers in the show. Hotnesssss(: Oh and there was a rosy in the show who had a hot hair swinger bf and shes mixed indian too. Ha. Omfg. Aaron johnson was the majorest hottie. All the girls sighed. Excuse me back off hes mine. Hes so sweet, hot accent and everytime he swinged his hair i squealed. Ha. Nah anyone can have him. I want someone else whos way better. If only he knew. Ok no i dont want him to know. You may not be perfect but you're perfect for me. Omg Aaron said that(: Oh well. Off to countdown. 5days to end of xmas. Hmmmm.

That fire you ignited
Good bad and undecided
Burns when i stand beside it
Your light is ultraviolet.

2008-12-29T21:40:00.004+08:00

Thats what you get when you stay at home for too long. But i like doing this. Especially if i'm sitting on the swing with paper and pen and get my inspiration watching the sky. Went to the zoo then night safari. Night safari was thrilling. Sitting on the tram against the dark night with the wind and noises of animals and smell of the rainforest. Will go there with babes on the next hols.

I was wasting all of my time
Thinking of you
You can say its silly.
As I turn around
And you're with her
But what can i do but to smile and pretend that everything is alright?
Someday i promise i'll be gone.
Whenever i get scared
I'll take a deep breath and look into your eyes.
Yet all I see
Is her name reflecting back at me.
I'm trying to erase you from my mind.

2008-12-27T15:03:00.003+08:00

Whos that girl living my life.

What do you see

when you close your eyes?

Love just is whatever you make it out to be.

Stolen my breath.

2008-12-25T16:08:00.003+08:00

Had an awesome christmas eve. Elena's left boo hoo:/ Come back and bring along a hotness jap boy. Ha. My house is madness now cousins are all here. Downed 3 shots and had 3 glasses of wine alrdy. Partay!! Yayyy. Santa visited me yesterday night. Hohoho. The first prezzie i opened said miracles do happen to those who believe. Creepy. Remember Charlotte what you said bout a miracle happening on christmas? Theres still 12 days. We'll wait(:

Charmaine: Rosy get off the com you're tipsy!!
Me: Am not bitch. Pass me the turkey.
Charmaine: Explain why you're calling the turkey baby?
Me: I'M NOT DRUNK!!! Shhhh you'll wake the turkey.

When you look me in the eyes.
Answers that i'll never find
they dont mean a thing tonight.

2008-12-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

Elena i swear you never fail to make me laugh like a maniac. She came over to take her prezzie cos that lucky ass is going to japan tmr:/ Will miss you truckloads babe. So she came and exchanged prezzies. Squealed at the cards cos they were so.. How do i say? Eyecandish. Hee. She stayed to watch the 9pm show. More squealing. And heres the best part she went home without her prezzie. Wth. Hahaahahah. Love you Elena yeo oh wait its mrs Superman(: Got the inspiration to mix up lyrics l like.

You said that i dont understand
My head is saying "I dont care"
My heart is screaming "I do".
You rendered me speechless
As time passes you'll realise
your frozen.
Sometimes i forget to breathe
when you're around.

2008-12-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

1st present received from Tabby(: Happy now hmmmm?

Maybe its a fall from grace
Are you gonna take your shot
because i kept my distance yet
you still caught my eye
Stay awake with me as sounds
of doubts fill my ears
Gone crazy from the moment
I met you.

2008-12-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

Went for penitential service in the morning. Then went to PS with family. Rents went for a meeting so sis and i decided to shop in town by ourselves. Went to meet Char, Nana and Ken at cene for awhile. While walking there heard a madwoman calling my name. It was Elena. Ha. Talked and they ate i didnt. I swear. Then went to elias tower zara. Its amazing what 3 girls can do. Mum thought she was santa claus and started trying on lots of clothes. She said take whatever you like. So i was like awesome(: Bought muchness. Then went to tangs to get more stuff. I went to taka alone. Got lost i think. Then superman i meant Brandon unlost my way. Ha. Bought all the stuff i needed frm art friend finally. Tired.

I'm not the only one for you
But yr the only one for me.
Stay.

2008-12-16T16:11:00.003+08:00

My no. 1 boy.

Saddle me up pls.

Horsey horsey

Writing my christmas list.

While the rain poured.

I'm back!! It was a long ride there. We were all urgent and dad had to drive on the bumpiestest road ever. Reached there checked into riders lodge. Training began right away. There i met a hotness boy his name is Tyson. We exchanged no. and he told me he liked my eyes. I speak horse language awesome eh? Tyson's a horsey idiots. Ha. We kicked off straight away learnt how to trot and gallop. Then i went for a swim then back to training. After had to groom and feed him. 2nd day learnt to race him. Thrilling i tell you nv knew i had that much adrenline. Ha. Went jacuzzi then spa. Relaxing much if it werent for the 1001 mosquito bites i received. I'd rather be back missed everyone(: Ok christmas shopping the nxt few days. Char you totally busted yrself. Found out something that made my heart go BOOM.

Looking up at the stars

I wondered just where you are.

2008-12-12T23:02:00.004+08:00

I was peeking.

Siao.Ai.Fei

Height difference.

Upward smile.

If you see this. I want to mend the friendship. I'm willing to forget everything. I'm trying my very best. Now its up to you. Cos whatever it is i'll always help a friend in need even if she had screwed me inside out. Ew. Ok so went out with Charlotte, Elena and Nana. We were late as usual. Trained to cathay. Brandon and Ming kit joined us for Nick and Nora's infinite playlist. We had a popcorn fight. Ha. Then ate sushi buffet at sakae. Ming Kit took out his bloody slippers. God i'm so full its crazy. Kept making fun of Charlotte. Nana and Elena were camwhoring as usual. Hmmm Guo Jun is my rich brother. Ha. Then went to cine. Omg saw shroom there my heart literally skiped a beat. Hee. Played arcade basketball Char and I lost to Nana and Elena:/ Brandon played dance dance revolution and sweated alot. Hes good. Ming Kit claimed he has his private one at home where hes an expert. Ha. Trained to meet mum then went home. Listening to stay close dont go. On repeat mode(: Elena's turn soon. Boys can be awfully retarded and sweet at the same time.

Keep yr eyes locked on mine
I'll catch you as you fall
Time after time.

2008-12-10T12:02:00.002+08:00

Char: I lend you gabriel.
Rosy: Dont want him.
Elena: Oh you want someone else?
Rosy: Yup
Nana: oh ok can.
Rosy: Wont it be awesome if we live in dens?
Char: Ya then we can bathe in kirei kirei soap.
Elena: Confirm must buy branded furniture if not nana not happy
Nana: Huh? Who?
Everyone laughs their asses off at 4 am in the morning(:
We broke a new record. Babes lets aim for 5 am.

The minute i looked into yr eyes
I knew it was a mistake.
Cos everytime when i try
I get tongue tied.

2008-12-06T12:57:00.002+08:00

Ytd went to town with Tabby, Marcus and Richa. Ate at thai express. Shit i'm even more broke. Then slacked at tcc. I love marshmellows with choc and and rocky road ice cream(: Thanks Richa! Abby and Alin came to join us. Then picked Charlotte at the mrt. Went to visit Ming kit who was cutting straws. Ha. Then we called Ken and Brandon cos they were at taka too. Brandon claimed they were at tommy studios when it was tommy hilfigur. However its spelt. Omg i'm still laughing. Then Ken said the big gay christmas tree and finally we met them. Charlotte went with them to meet Nana at vivo. I went with Tabby to expo. I seriously am an A. Ha. Super tired. But conferenced till 2.30. Everybody was saying Nana. Poor thing but really Nana you should think bout it. Elena i swear you're building a house and brushing your shoe while talking to me!!

I'm not the one who swept you
off your feet.
Cos this aint a fairytale.

2008-12-04T23:13:00.002+08:00

Went out with family today. Caught bolt in 3D. It was nice. The hamster was soo cute. Awesome. Ha. A couple sat beside me and they were snogging. How do you snog with 3D glasses on? Hmmm. Ate alot today goal was to spend mum's money so i can starve when i go out without her. I'm broke:/ I might be working at mindchamps or borders whoever replies first. Omg i shrank to an A. From B to A. I wonder what happened? Girls would know what i'm talking bout. I think. Elena and I have decided to let go cos its not worth keeping it. Hi 5.

I thought i lost you.
But in finding you
I lost myself.

2008-12-03T11:35:00.003+08:00

I gotta let it out. Babes are right why torture myself any longer. Did you ever think for a second that i wouldnt realise all thats happening? Why you changed yr blog password. Elena and i arnt stupid. It hurts most to know that i cant change anything. I thought i could fix it but i guess you dont want to. I cant sleep at night cos i keep thinking of what you said. What you said bout being me being poor, desperate, jealous, no taste, etc. What you said bout my friends was the worst. Well you know what? I dont care if i'm poor cos i'm happy. If i'm so desperate i'd have thrown myself at any guy. And i joined tuition was to get help in maths. If i wanted to know boys i'd do it somewhere else dont you worry. If i'm jealous of you going overseas why didnt i send in my application. Why would i be jealous of my own friend. Why am i asking qns you'll never wanna know the ans. Who cares if i dont have taste. You bought the dress i said was nice. Contradicting much. You can tell your mum, dad or sis everything. In the end the truth will come out. Then we'll see who'll be banged. I'm not trying to be someone else but i'd like to know who are you. Cos right now yr a bitch. I'm not the kind who'd confront. But maybe one day when i loose it i'll like to ask, wtf is your problem. Because i'm tired i really am. I want to know what made you change. Because its killing me to know i cant change you back. Even after everything you'll always be the one who went thru with me my worstest and bestest times. Maybe its just me not you. Oh ants do have arseholes and i need a job soon.

Not even God has the answer.
When did it all go wrong?

2008-12-01T22:13:00.008+08:00

Bye Ernie!!

Bestest babe.

Went for physio in the morning. I literally begged the doc to stop. He was nerve-shocktiding my ankle. Guess what? i've been able to move my ankle bone is because my tendon is loose. Cool huh. So i gotta go for physio every week if not i wont be able to go on point:( Ok met Tabby and Delon we went all the way to chinatown to eat... Delifrance. Wth. Anyway Delon was me making laugh so i couldnt eat properly. Then met babes and the boys at the airport to send Ernie off to USA. Mingkit keeps laughing whenever i speak chinese. Hmmmmm? Then bussed down to katong. Someone pissed the shitpies outta me. Was so angry i fell aslp in the bus. We played pool. I sucked big time. Then went to pp and bussed home. Korean language B? Awesome(:

I gotta run far away
Maybe its a fall from grace
I need to end this pace.

2008-11-29T14:34:00.004+08:00

Came back at 1am ytd. Went for mindchamps reunion so happy to see them again. Outing soon guys(: So went to town with Tabby and Elena. Watched wildchild saw Steph at cine too. Elena and i were giggling whenever Alex Pettyfer snogged emma. He was hotness i tell you the way he talked too. Erm Tabby was just eating away. Ha. Then we bought stuff frm fox and i bought my bangle. Elena finally bought her superman top i got 1 too. Went to pierce my ear. Held Tabby's hand real tight but Elena screamed for me. She kept saying omg even after it was done. Funny girl. Then walked to bras basah to find for arts stuff. Soo many awesome stuff but we didnt have enough cash. Oh well. I gotta start thinking of gifts for everyone soon! Met mum for dinner then off to mindchamps. Omg my mens is killing me didnt have appetite to eat at all. Chinatown on monday to play chess with old ppl(:

If only you knew
that i'm stuck somewhere
in the middle of this.

2008-11-27T22:12:00.003+08:00

Time to find a new blog skin. I gotta think of a way to beat tabby's new tag line *shitfuck*. Hoy to you tabby. ha. Oh man nana going for interview tmr. Ok gotta go call that tellemaketing thingy soon. I suddenly miss my drama people and all the shit we used to do together. Hmmmmm. I wish i was at the fullerton room 205 now. Then i'd go to the balcony to think, count stars and order myself a cocktail from room service. Havent thank Richa for that awesome day. Delon's pimping tabby and i nxt week so town expect us.

Do you think when you're alone
Does the wind call out your name?

2008-11-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

Today was crap. I was irritated the whole day. I dont and never will understand my dad. I hate him. Dont know wth his problem is. I wanna go out its my holiday. OMG. Piss the shit pies outta me ok.

Just like i knew it would happen.
When will it be my turn?

2008-11-25T21:18:00.003+08:00

When they say dont eat fried food when you've gotta sorethroat. They mean it! I'm dying from my itchy throat and pounding headache. Dont know which is worster. I ate so much chilli for dinner somemore. Guess rosy never learns. Tabby keep your Markers. I Can. Charlotte you've got a Dant. Elena Kirei kirei. Nana goes for Branded stuff. Our lingo is awesome man. Yup so went zouk thingy with many ppl ok so maybe its just 10 of us. It was insanely boring. So we left and wandered aimlessly. The boys kept jay walking. Scary. Then the boys suggested we go marina. They played arcade we slacked at starbucks. I was damn tired by then woke up at 6am to send my sis to hk. Hmmm i wanna go to fort canning for a picnic then count stars at night(:

Caught your smile
from across the chaos.
That unwritten answer.

2008-11-24T15:18:00.006+08:00

Thats how she sleeps

Omg my blog is dying. Went for a whole week of camp. Tp and Np. Tp camp was awesomest. It set the standard thats why np didnt seem so fun. But nvm at least i found an eyecandy there(: Yeah so wearing shorts for the whole week was killing all of us. And whats more i fell terribly ill. Cried all the way hm like a baby cos my whole body was on fire. Elena cant stop talking bout superman. Nana bout alex the lion and charlotte is still deciding over her 47363546273 princes. Ha. As for me i'm gonna be a nun and be single till i'm saggy and old. Marcus better bring us back some wife biscuits frm hk. Zouk tmr. Sis is leaving for hk tmr. Yeah i can see the word FREEDOM on the walls.

Through the rear view mirror

I saw my tragedy unfold.

Angel of mercy.

2008-11-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

Os are over!!!!!! Like finally i can let lose. Ha. ok so lots happened in sch like everyone finding out bout someones true colour. Well it was bout time they did. ok i'm poor so what at least i've got friends and happiness. Excuse me if i was desperate i wld have tried to steal yr crush. Send you off? Kiss my ass and lick my belly button first la k. Whatever. Relatively i had a bad bad week last week. It sucked thru and thru. I'm dissapointed that you've changed what i hate myself so much for is the fact that i cant change you back to who you were.

Lost to you agn.
Keep down stay low.
When it comes to nothing.
say everything.

2008-10-08T12:06:00.002+08:00

Os is in 12 days time. Shit. I'm proud of myself though, think i learnt alot this yr and i'm becoming more matured. I'm studying like how a mull works. Never have i done maths papers everyday. Eveytime i feel afraid i tell myself that it'll be alright cos i know it'll be. I push myself to think of all the fun i'll have after Os. Study!!

I'll make it through the rain
Cos i know i'm strong enough to mend.

2008-08-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

Stressed. Studies has ruled me now. Eating alot to release my stress. I dont know whether i'd have the strength to last. I wanna think about the things that matter. Sometimes i wish i was a robot. Stiff to the heart. I'm falling sick often. Vulnerable.

All i need is the air i breathe.
Maybe everyone is broken silently inside.
Or maybe its just me.

2008-06-21T16:54:00.003+08:00

Nooo sch is reopening nxt week!! Shit no more waking up late. Rah. Back to the hectic and stressful life. Omg Os is in 4 mths damn. Ha. This hols caught quite alot of movies and spent lots of time outside. Tuition la. Nv even shop only bought balonglongs with bffs ytd:) I dont wanna like you yet cos i dont wanna be fooled then get upset my studies cant be affected not now. Ballet. Sigh sometimes i wonder why i still carry on. I'm not good i mean whatever i do theres other ppl way better. Whats more with the perfect body. I'm feeling so bloated now shit mens coming soon. Out.

Looking at you through a peephole.
Made no sense at all.

WATER CANOE POLO.

2008-06-04T21:32:00.005+08:00

Its three thunbs up for me today. It was like boys paradise at SP today. Went with Charlotte and Vanana. We were in the tourism tour and was supposed to board the bus to get out of sp for a tour around spore. Before boarding we went to the washroom took too long i think cos the damn bus left without us. Ha. Was angry at first but it was a blessing in disguise man. Cos we went to watch the water canoe polo and whoo hoo were the guys major hotness. I like the way they suoot under water then suoot up again that explains their gorgeous abs(: After their game they took out their lifejackets wah! I almost fainted at their tonned and hot body. I tell you i'm in lala land k. I am not a pervert la. Hee. After we went to 85 to eat dinner. Awesome day(: My new hobby- watching specific pools with certain people in it.

WATER CANOE POLO.
But not once did you slip out of my mind.

2008-06-03T15:14:00.002+08:00

Ponned ss ytd stupid school called dad ass. Ha. My mum is freakin me out shes wearing her new eye liner in the house even when she sleeps. Went to club with bf ytd went to the gym wah damn aching now. Oh and i found out the thing thats hurting is called pfrioftis yeah so my pfrioftis hurts wth. Been dreaming of you every other day. I'm happy yet frustrated, how am i supposed to forget you like that? Never mind will try my best by occupying myself. I studied till 2 plus ytd night without any afternoon nap good girl rosy(: I feel so fat these few days shit. K gonna grab some potato chips now. Ha.

I've got 20 seconds to let you go
Theres beauty in my breakdown
You're still the sound track to my summer.

2008-05-29T22:20:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i feel i make a fool of myself to everyone. Its like nobody takes me seriously. When i get angry nobody cares sometimes i feel people only want me there for fun then i'm invisible after that. Nowadays i find having time with only myself is the best. I'm trying to hear what my heart is telling me cos i'm very confused about everything. I thought with time you'll realise that i care for you but i guess not. I dont even know whether i should be liking you in the first place. I've been seeing you in my dreams often that only makes it worst. I bury myself in work to forget you. Why? Why issit everytime i like someone it just comes to nothing. I'd really like to know. You'll never know if you dont try. They always say but i'm scared i'm scared to try. Out.

If you love someone

Making them happy and seeing them happy

is enough.

Its now or never.

2008-05-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

Bad day today i bought ice cream and chips to cheer me up. God help my sorry ass please? As of current i obtained a F9 for maths, F9 for accounts, E8 for science and C6 for chinese. Shit. I studied hard for science know didnt study for chinese in the end pass. Great. More results tomorrow hopefully it aint devastating. Out.

Pick yourself up
Brush away the unhappiness
Get going on that dream.

2008-05-10T12:39:00.002+08:00

Went to watch what happens in Vegas. Never laughed so hard in this year seriously. It was awesome. Then went to starbucks and we saw the most gorgeously hotsome caucasian guy ha. After that went shopping yup that was it but it was fun(: I hope mummy will let me go for the party but i'm really nervous for results. i know confirm my maths is like crap but i hope i did well for the rest. Cross fingers. Ha going town with bffs later. Out.

Everyone goes thru a little bit of heaven and hell.
Looking at life in cartoon motion.

2008-05-06T16:37:00.003+08:00

So this is how the friendship goes.
I know it sounds absurd but everyones has their private lifes.
Sometimes you aint know the reason of your solitare.
Say my name so i'd know you're changing me.
Stay awake for me.
I need 24 reasons to know i'm wrong.
Because its tearing me apart.
Wake up take me with you we all need second chances to carry on with life.
Is is broken?
Can we work it out by shouting out loud?
Your eyes says it all.
Everyones walking away.
Dont look away stay awake.

2008-05-02T18:13:00.002+08:00

Theres alot of things i want to say but i cant. Oh well. Just did maths paper 2 today omg major disaster ha. At least ss and geog was alright. Goodness i'm pmsing know so irritating. I keep thinking i'm pissing everyone off. Ran 7 rounds today its true when you think when you run you run more. Yup i thought alot studies and other stuff. I shall try to smile more often i deserve that i guess. Gotta buck up on maths. My favourite sub of all time. Hee. I'm laughing to myself.(:

Cos its us against the world
I wont see the day that i wont catch you when you fall.

2008-04-19T12:44:00.002+08:00

Drama(:

Exams are in 2 weeks. Goodness i'm not ready for maths and accounts. Damn. Been eating alot this week stress? Ha. Yeah right. I hate it when i'm alone especially at night cos i'll think alot. Lots of rubbish will come out then. Oh well. Cant blog bout certain stuff cos apparently practically anyone can read my blog. So... I'm gonna make it private. Soon. Yup i'm done. Out.

I've got a bucket full of sunshine.

And a love that will never be mine.

2008-03-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

Life has been hectic never before have i paid so much attention to my studies or felt competitive. Oh well everyday i come back tired sometimes moody. Somethings been troubling me i know friends are suppossed to talk things out with one another but i dont know. Its you your behaviour is very disappointing you've changed i dont know why sometimes i'm soo upset by you but i cant tell you i hardly even talk to you anymore. I guess friends come and go. Having major flu and headache now. Tabby tabby you're so obsessed with you know looking(: Thanks babe for always cheering me up. Alright gotta mug for ss now. Out.

What hurts the most?
Maybe its me not you.

2008-02-06T15:33:00.000+08:00

Yay schools out for the week. Monday had tuition with bf, Taffy & patil laughed alot again. Ha. Was super tired on tues down with flu.Then went late night shopping at pp to get last minute groceries. Major headache i tell you. Today went to school for 1 hour of biology then went
recess. After, went to the hall for celebrations FUNNEY sia. We laughed till abs hurt like shit. Peck li la dont know what stupid joke she tell us. Ha. She kept shouting Pilo's name major embarressment. Reunion dinner today. Reunion what eh we see each other everyday. Tsk gonna grow super fat. Ooh big ang pow here Losy comes(:

You keep calling me back to your heart

2008-01-22T17:42:00.000+08:00

Is it me or have you changed? I dont know and i dont wanna know its puzzling me. I mean i try but it always backfires on me. And i'm not the only one who thinks so. I know you have your frustrations so do I. Sometimes i wanna say it out but the look on your face tells me i should keep it to myself. Sometimes what you say just doesnt make sense. I have no idea what goes on in your mind now a days. Maybe just maybe i should stop being nice nah then i'll end up in hell. Or have i ever been nice? I guess studies is really taking a toll on everything. Everyday i'm too tired to think about other stuff only studies. My love's name is? STUDIES:/ I need a brain wash.

I smile ofcos i do.
With only some knowing the truth.

2008-01-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

I hate fridays i seriously dont know why. I always have mixed feelings or unexplainable feelings on friday nights. But yet i love it when i see my madness people in drama they're major funniness. They put a smile to my face everytime. Studies are stressful as usual. Eating alot so much for dieting. Tired much everyday. Alrite out.

This is for Aida my valentine(: Cheer up I know its difficult but in time you'll learn to let go. When it gets major hard remember i'll always be here for you. You're hot and funny babe. Dont forget to smile one day we'll just know why we weren't made for the other half. As for now Aida Chew is mine(: Love you many many.

I'll just pretend I dont care anymore.
Everything feels so empty.

2008-01-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

Today went to school at 8.45. Stood listening to the vp talk for god knows how long so my eyes started wondering and i realised lots of people have long silky hair. Ha. Random. Sat the new sitting arrangement today sucked my neck got tired after staring at the screen which was like right infront of my face. School was quite relaxed today. Got caught by joseph for running around sch in shorts:/ Walked back home with the usual asses(: There was a bee on my arm i screamed super loudly flinged my arm at the same time the sausage i was eating flew forwards. Luckily nobody infront of me. Tabby laughed major loudly like 10 secs later ha madness.

If love is a picture.
Then i'd say i've ran out of film.

2008-01-12T14:26:00.000+08:00

I suddenly felt very stressed ytd after cca when i came home. Was very tired i guess. I kept thinking that theres soo much competition everywhere. Not only in studies, dance too:/ I need at least 9 points to get the course i want. My bio is soo screwed everybody is like wth? And every morning everyone in class is soo lifeless and snappy. So in the end i just learn to shut up too. I hate being tired and emo the whole day. I must pick up and study study. Everyday i come home at 10 major tiredness. Nothing is on my mind only studies its everything to me now.

I'll try not to fall too deep.
I'm tired, tired of holding on.

2008-01-03T14:59:00.001+08:00

School just doesnt feel the same anymore. I dont get it, alrite i get it but i just dont wanna face it. I'm sitting beside Vanessa goodness shes super fair like seriously she looks so pale i keep thinking shes gonna faint(: Anyway everone was emo and tired today, it was freezing too. The timetable was exhausting. The maths teacher is oh my godly monotone and slow. Bleah. Recess was just as bad we didnt eat again. Something keeps coming back to me no matter how hard i try to push it out of my mind. Oh well. Nevermind its my last year in the school anyway(: Out.

Wonder if you know you're all i think about each night.
So i go to bed and turn off the lights
I'll put your picture down and maybe get some sleep at night.

2008-01-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

Happy new year everyone alrite i'm a day late. Ha. New year's eve was da bomb yup met cousins and drank the night or was it morning away. Was walking back from Marina i kept shouting happy new year at the top of my voice according to my cousins. Ha. You know when your drunk even Titanic the show is funny(: Started school alrdy today it just didnt feel awesome guess its because they kept saying sec fours this sec fours that and the sec fives are like wth what bout us? Ha. Oh well. My pe teacher is gay i think well according to Krysten at least. Saw all my retarded friends whoohoo we're so gonna drive Raju to her grave(: Alrite out.

Yeah it'll come to me
Its only the matter of when?

2007-12-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

Oh oh the new year is coming soon kinda excited to start school. Ha. Can see all my retard friends again. Dont think i'll be going out these few days. Gonna relax at home and piss my family members off. Yeah thats one things i'm damn good at pissing people off. Ha. Oh i've thought of the top of my list of new year resolutions. I wanna be the freaking happiest girl alive(: Ate super much today went to gelare and ate a big waffle all to myself. Ha. I saw Maria Sherapova!! Major hotness no wonder Peck is in love with her. Alrite wanna get some cookies to eat i'm hungry oh well. Out.

I looked left and you turned right.

2007-12-26T13:14:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! I now officially look like santa. Ha after all the parties and going out and ytd's christmas branch goodness. I like Alili's house and her cats ha. Never got to see bam bam though. I got a new phone whoo hoo(: But i dont kno how to use some functions so bleah. ha. Went for midnight mass came home at 3am.Ytd drank alot mostly breezer and red wine. Then played five ten with cousins and drank two shots of vodka mix with god knows what ha. Bleah. Ate lots of log cake till i have to close my eyes whenever i walk past the bakery if not i'd puke for sure. I dont fancy anyone now i guess i just feel tired, tired of liking people. Oh well. Out.

All the things you said is running through my head
Have i crossed the line.

2007-12-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

Everything i do is not good enough for you. First you thought my results are good then when you heard of others you said mine was crap.I mean in life no matter how good you are theres gonna be someone who is better than you right? I mean i kno i can do better but i really put in my best. Everyone could tell that i improved since prelims. What can i do to make you proud? I try my very best in everything but in the end it all comes down to bullshit in your eyes. I try and try but i dont think i can carry on any further. Its very close to my breaking point already. And O level year hasnt even started. You keep saying i'm not putting in any effort or be bothered bout my work for next year. Did you ever think that with a little encouragement i could soar? Did you ever consider how i feel everytime you compare me to my friends? I kno i was great during sec 1 and 2 but come on at least i'm picking myself up into the top 40 already. Its a small step at a time. Do you think i'm not upset that everyone is climbing above me? Every night i lay in bed thinking why i fell behind why i ended up like this and most importantly why am i starting to look down on myself too.

On a happier note went out with Peck, Alili and Kaven. Yup went to town again ha. Watched Mr dont know what's wonder emporium hee(: Boring and my toes were freezing, Alili's something else were freezing. Erm like eww Alili.Goodness ha. Alrite gotta stop thinking soo much. Out.

What do you do when it all falls apart
Is everything gonna be alrite?

2007-12-18T17:07:00.000+08:00

Results are out!! I got 7 points same as bf creepy right. 7 points was what i was initially aiming for till i heard unexpected ppl got 5 points. But i still thank god for what i got. Dont think bf is happy though. Sigh. Not that i'm damn happy like Taffy goodness shes gone wild. Ha. I'm happy that i made it but i'm very scared for next year. I was shaking so badly that when i signed the paper i couldnt write my own name properly. So embrassing alrite. Going for ballet soon dance my confusion out(:

I'm hanging by the moment here without you

2007-12-13T12:18:00.000+08:00

Omg major hotness.

Yes yes i'm blogging now. Happy? Gosh some asses just dont get it that Losy is busy. Ha. Jk. Alrite went to one degree 15 yesterday with Prissy and Patrina. Supposed to do maths but ended up watching this cantonese show Prissy brought on the portable dvd. Like my house got no tv for me to watch in sia. Ha. Ate alot talked and laughed lots too. Nat called talk bout Ak that silly girl super confused sigh i dont know how to help anymore. Then Taffy called too everytime she calls she makes me laugh major loudly. But i was in the longe so cant laugh loud somemore Patrina studying. So had to laugh silently looked like i was vibrating ha. Maybe shall go to sentosa with Peck they all if it isnt pouring. Tabby was major madness yesterday as usual(: And watch it i did not flirt. Ha.

I dont wanna ask for more

You're all i want for Christmas this year.

2007-12-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

Ytd slept at 2am. Then at 6am the maid came in to take clothes to iron and woke me up. Damn la i was cursing badly you mess with my sleep you deal with my naughty side. Then met Tabby at 12 trained to town to meet peck. Fel came along yup the four of us walked ate talked and laughed like super much(: Had lots of fun miss peck still see la silly peck. Saw my xmas dress alrdy but gonna keep searching for more suz said she'll help yay. Then cabbed down to prissy's house yup. Fck la my mum keep shouting at me to get my ass off the com so fine. Out.

To live without you in my life
Every little thing you do makes me wanna smile.

2007-12-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

Sunshine

Went to town with sunshine today. Since she put my pic in her blog i'll put hers in mine(:ha. Went to catch fred claus ate so much. Then went to walk around talked alot i loved it when i talk to nat she understands me(: Then had dinner at soul garden whoohoo ate till my tummy gonna burst man. ha. After that walked somemore saw marvin yup both of us were lyk omg so hot ha. then trained home. Love ya sunshine thanks for listening to me and making me smile to myself lyk an ass the whole day(:

Can i not like you for awhile?

2007-11-30T17:56:00.000+08:00

Once in a lifetime.

This is for Taffy and Prissy. Sorry la this is the only pic i have of us three looking nice right. We can never take a nice pic together know. Anyway you two are the awesomest people in my life yes. Whatever happens Losy will always be here to back yall up. Get it? Next year aint gonna be easy but we'll pull through together you hear me babes. Man i feel like a football coach(: Friends are god sent i think ok some not all ha. So if i ever get to change anything in my life i'll change nothing because if i did i wouldnt have met yall. Thanks for taking in all my crap yup. Many more ballating years to come for us(: Bye bf come back in one piece thanks. Taffy our date on monday. Out.

Everytime i get a chance to see you smile.

2007-11-07T19:42:00.000+08:00

Ha.Today was awesome went to taffy's club. Played tennis damn tiring ok the stupid grip made my hand black yuck.ok so i sucked at tennis so what? Ha. Then went to the steam bath for 1 & half hrs.We fell asleep in there and almost died sia super hot ok.Then went to eat at the bowling ally the cheese hotdog cheese fries and chicken wings its was major awesomeness ha. Went bowling i rock at bowling omg so bhb. Well at least i rock at something right? Then ate and drank somemore so much for losing weight sia.After that we went to the beach sat on the rocks,talked,bitched,screamed,sang and obviously ate ha. It was damn romantic ha eeee who wants to get romantic with taffy man(: Yup watched planes made silly willy wishes that we know will never come true.Then cabed back home.Shit la damn broke sia ha.Nvm la.OUT.

I remember every glance you shot me.
Everday i worry bout you.

2007-11-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

On friday Tabby came over, watched scary movie 1234 haha. Dyed our hair violet brown. Went to the market bought bubble tea and snacks. Ate chicken rice and popcorn while watching showed Tabby the L word she was amazed haha. We talked to silly online she already bought us something awesome eh? Went to the beach in the night with Kimmie. She thought me something. I screamed into the night she said the sea will take the pain away oh well. Talked to alili online miss her loads. Found out she thinks exactly like me. Have you ever felt like you wanna hold that someone whenever you look into their eyes. And you love that person because you know theres is a side of her that nobody believes in but you just know? Now you know why i think so much. Sigh. Ok no i promised alili no more sighing. Ha. Going shopping with mummy and swimming too night.

I really hate how much i love you.
Cos waiting for you is like waiting for forever to come.

2007-11-03T12:05:00.000+08:00

Dont we look sexy?

Halloween 2007!

Hello i'm back, been thinking alot lately. Went to shar's hse first on wed to chill play? haha then walked to hyena's birthday/halloween party. Dressed in IJ uni awesome i tell you. Wenya has a man in her like always there were bats in the night and guess who protected losy.

Wenya la it was damn funny Elena was screaming her ass off. The night was awesome someone is stealing my gay husband Mo away shant say her name later my com jam up sia. Then stayed over at prissy's. slept at 2.45 prissy slept at 2 so for the 45 mins i was awake i laughed thought and talked to peck.

Nxt day met tabby sent prissy off to sydney. Some shit ass asked if i came from india at the airport. Ya la i came on the the bangla airlines.Then Patrina sent us back i was super sick not in the head la felt lyk puking which i did. Sat nxt to the toilet bowl for lyk 15 mins thinking i was gonna die.sigh. So long nv blog got soo many things to say.

I remember every glance you shot me

2007-10-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

My favourite

N's are like over finally. Been slacking i guess.Went everywhere with taffy & silly. Yes to the extent of the zoo yup.Taffy & I went to vivo & saw a shooting star guess the wish aint working.Went to silly's dad'd badae on a freaking yatch!! Was fun i was quite high after 3 cups of white wine with coke added yes i wasnt thinking of suiside so its ok=)Life's been up & down lately kinda confused over certain stuff.Damn broke cos of all the shopping yes bam! haha ok pictures...

I've got a first class ticket to be alone.

2007-09-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

First paper done yup chinese. It was ok kinda easy better not say=) Rained heavily today i love the rain hee. Went to prissy's hse god i said hello auntie & it was actually patrina super embrassing & her middle finger came haha den i ate & we studied we did ok? Yup dont look at me i shy yea rite since when were you ever shy sia haha Did point i jumped on point & almost broke my toes o well. My outing with superboy changed to thurs hes got to complete his class grad slides oh. patrina came in in a pullover and jeans haha she look like she was going to mt everest she said she look fat yea wateva sia. & she didnt give me my final destination roller coster ride o well. Oi if you think its childish then fck off la nobody asked for your comments anw jealous no thrill in your life issit sheesh!! Did i mention i find ppl in pullover hot ? Thats y peck loves wearing pullover duh cos she mus please her gf rite? hehe ok 2morrow ss gotta go mug bye ROSY IS ON HAPPY PILLS.

The fact that you're this way.
Thats why i love you.

2007-08-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

I feel so free without you. Seriously i'm happy like that now no i'm not in a relationship haha its something else. My life is back to normal stalker your so erm ya everyone told me u were using me i didnt belive but now even i can tell that your the ghost from hell hey it rhymes haha well well mummy coming back 2morrow whoo hoo=) School was fun as usual my frends all made me laugh like shit got abs alrdy. Tabby & me hav a dirty secret hehe ok thats all going for tuition now.

Be my Catholic School Boy=)

2007-08-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

What the hell is your problem? Your the one hurts you've got to be freakin hell kidding ok if its not for something next week i wouldnt have cared. My frends are right you're not worth a frend & god knos whether you have frends or not bcos i kno your not from kc god shit this banana up thing. Some1 pls take the parang & ya wateva. I'm beginning to think everything you told me was a lie. My frends wanna settle it but no i had to say no. Mayb its true that it doesnt pay to be nice mayb its best to find everything and run. At least i kno ppl will be there for me so just get out of my life fitch cos i aint gonna be nice no more. I aint gonna be treated lyk a fool.

Cos you're just like a pill
instead of making me better
you keep making me ill.

2007-08-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

Today rosy in sch very guai kno? haha wth did i mention i fell on my bum? it still hurts lyk shit the blue black is growing sia=( My goodness perlims in 4days!!!!! 2day i'm feeling happy yet disturbed o well. My love finally broke up wiv that +++++ yea tats the word haha She said she never loved him tat shes been playing him bcos she has another person outside friggin 2 timer i wld personally love to kick tat sickos ass!! I Prayed to the stars that you will noe blame yrself that u'll find happiness it may not b me but i want you 2 kno tat i'll catch u when u fall & i'll b waiting time after time=) Ms tan misplaced my accounts test paper lyk wth now i've got a VR on my report card i failed 3 sia o well haha Ohh i ate double choc dognuts 2day yea baby now i can rock 4 life agn hehe I'm soo missin dancing lyk a maniac 2 every song during empower u sigh i'm totally going back 4 revisit i'll sneak my way in if possible=) ok tats all super tired liao

He finally sang his potential break up song...

2007-07-31T15:36:00.000+08:00

My goodness its been friggin long since i update Too busy mugging my prelims are nxt week sia!!! Oh went 4 empower you my goddness it rocked me 4 life met super many new frends Was in the bears group=) Oh we danced lyk we were borned to & i swear i nv knew Charlotte cld grind oops shhhhh!!! haha oh 2day i kept checkin my hp 4 god knos wat reason... Something happened i dont even kno how something so perfect cld end up lyk that.All i kno is i miss yr crap & nobody will & can replace a total asshole lyk u. You're the only 1 who ever made me vibrate on my bed i mean laugh til i vibrate la haha oh i miss yea sigh i'd walk for miles i'm serious no cabbing or anything sia if i can jus see you=) ok its midnite alrdy shld catch some sleep although 2morrow's timetable damn slack hehe

Do you think of me like i do of you?

2007-07-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

Sch has been hectic mock exams started liao!!!! But guess wat 4 the 1st time in my entire life i'm feeling confident i mean i'm not saying oh i'll get a1 for everything or wat but i jus feel hai ya i dunoo how 2 say. My alter boy is out wiv his assholic & dumb gf sigh.. Ytd Karen called at nite & we talked we told each other nice nice stories bout our loves=) I love d 1 she told me bout the hammock i cried k cos its super sweet & i could actually picture it!!! haha i'm damn hungry la oh my i wanna b anaroxic=) The ella song keeps comin into my head ok gtg mugging agn tooodles!!

Would you ---- me everyday?

2007-06-23T22:29:00.000+08:00

Oh my mama sch is reopening in lyk wat 2 days time oh my... Hols will b greatly missed yup but i'm excited bout seeing my bitches agn=) I'm gonna buy a new bag yes its a nerdy nike haversack wat la i'm a nerd wat dont believe? Ask my gf lor she'll tel u i suck at kissing cos my thick specs gets in d way hahahahahaha!!! My clique is going 2 scream when dey see my bag=) Oh my go back 2 sch got so much gossips 2 tel & hear seriously i dont feel lyk throwing up alrdy!! Chinese lessons wiv peck is coming back i missed her lyk totally much hehe I miss him but wats d point sia at tis moment hes probably screwing his gf oh my god i did not say tat no la i'll stil hold on no matter wat ok until he himself tel me its wasting my time la... Yes all my hm work is done i tink=) yup i'm totally sick man fever is killing me nvm can lose weight cos prissy say i dont tink rosy can fit thru d class door no more i'm lyk fcuk u baby=) ok going mass 2morrow 2 watch Anthony fall aslp & snore super loudly haha its my 2 hubby's badae 2morrow Alili & Karen so Happy Birthday hotsomes=) ok nites world...

If you tink i'm going to leave jus lyk tat
You dont kno me at all boy=)